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[15 Jun 2006|03:42am]
thank fucking GOD for salad and zesty gardenia mix and pepperoncini and pickles anddddd other good stuff... yummy....

mmmm cheddar cheese rice cakes..


am i right Kayleigh? heheheheheh..

i think i just orgasmed.
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[13 Jun 2006|08:01pm]

does anyone have any purple hair spray stuff (temporary shit) green body paint, fabric paint, and/or green lipstick they would like to donate me?

yeah, im gonna be a frankenstein girl.

thanks in advance :D

i live in downtown.
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[13 Jun 2006|05:37pm]

i have to pay a ticket so i might not be able to see MSI.

Who wants to get me a ticket? -grin-

They're between 16-21 dollars. I REALLY WANT TO SEE THEM.

Pretty pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
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[07 Jun 2006|11:34am]
Last night was cute.
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[06 Jun 2006|12:14pm]
So I am depressed.

I thought I did what was right. I have fucked up someone's life.

Maybe it is true. Maybe I am.

I just want to be happy. I want to live and be happy. Be happy about myself. About my choices. I am going to college. I am going to get my own place one day. I am going to provide for my daughter alone if I have to.

She is all that matters now.

This is an apology to everyone who I have tormented or hurt with my words and my stupid insecurities.

This is my attempt to become a better person.

I think I am going to start practicing abstinence. It might help.

I am so so sorry.
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bowels. [05 Jun 2006|02:20pm]
It is very sad when you are so dependant on reading while you use the bathroom (numero dose) that you have to read ingredients off of the toothpaste, and the soap, and the shampoo..

I cannot shit.

I haven't been able to in like a week. Then when I do, it burns. Like I ate an entire bottle of jalepenos. You're welcome for the info.

Good day.
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[04 Jun 2006|05:25pm]
[ mood | constipated ]


i love you guys.

i feel a lot better lately. i got some things off my chest recently that i needed to. no more weight on my shoulders. yay.

I work tomorrow.. yay. i cant wait to get paid

i need MONEYS.

i love cori<33 she rules.

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do eet [02 Jun 2006|01:09am]
3.Place of residence:
4.What makes you happy:
5.What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6.Do you read my lj:
7.If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8.An interesting fact about you:
9.Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10.Favourite place to be:
11.Favourite lyric:
12.Best time of the year:
13.Do you remember when we met?
14.Have I been a good friend to you?
15.Tell me something you've never told me before.
1.One thing you like about me:
2.Two things you like about yourself:
3.Put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
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[02 Jun 2006|12:08am]

Started my new jobby job today.. well actually got on the phones. I got the most sales! Go me. I got 12, it's really easy and I love it.

Lot's of drama lately, with a lot of people and other shit.. ugh. Someone kill me!

I wanna be loved by you and nobody else but you...........
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[30 May 2006|01:36pm]
Hey guys.. so living with Kayleigh is cool. Serenity and I have a small little room in the back, with a box fan in the window. It gets pretty cool. Dan's brother gave me a futon. Its so much better than the one I had. The one I had was wooden and full of piss...thanks Serenity. So a lot has happened lately I met Kayleighs brother, Justin. He is really cute! And he has big arms.. yummeh. He came down from the Army to visit before he gets sent to Iraq. Wish him well.

I start my job tomorrow. I can't wait. David is supposed to watch the beast. I forgot about her Doctor's appointment today so I need to reschedule. Rawr. I have such a bad memory. It sucks. So yeah, Serenity's favorite word now is "no." She is annoying me to death with it. Ever since she saw her cousin Purity that's all she can say. Ahhh. Right now she is sweeping.. or trying to. Cute kid. I am waiting for the medicaid people to write me back, I really need insurance. We are supposed to be getting a phone turned on here shortly. Thank goodness. This internet phone thing is really annoying. SO yeah.. I am gonna go now.

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[28 May 2006|09:43pm]
You scored as Death Rocker. You are a Death Rocker. You think beyond the 80s (cause you really like zombies, psychedelia, and B-movies) and are into the colorful, twisted side of the goth culture (which is portrayed in all your lovely horror-rock shows).


Death Rocker




Fantasy Goth


Romantic Goth


Perky Goff


Old-school Goth




Ethereal Goth


Anything-Goes Goth


Confused Outsider


Understanding Outsider


What subcategory of Goth best fits you?
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lol @ yahoo [24 May 2006|09:57pm]
(21:40:38) jakhamer75: what's shakin
(21:40:48) pixiefocker: nm you
(21:40:55) jakhamer75: same here
(21:41:00) jakhamer75: ur from mulberry, fl?
(21:41:59) jakhamer75: i'm from orlando but have a business in winter haven
(21:42:10) pixiefocker: yes i am
(21:42:12) pixiefocker: thats cool
(21:42:50) jakhamer75: what do u do for fun out there
(21:42:57) pixiefocker: nothing
(21:42:58) pixiefocker: lol
(21:43:03) pixiefocker: i sit on the internet because mulberry is tiny
(21:43:09) jakhamer75: for sure
(21:43:21) jakhamer75: how old are you
(21:43:25) pixiefocker: 19
(21:43:31) jakhamer75: got a man?
(21:44:12) pixiefocker: yes
(21:44:21) pixiefocker: how old are you?
(21:44:29) jakhamer75: 25
(21:44:33) pixiefocker: ooo
(21:44:35) pixiefocker: my bf is 26
(21:44:43) jakhamer75: nice, u like older guys?
(21:44:50) pixiefocker: yeah
(21:45:00) jakhamer75: well do u guys live together?
(21:45:14) pixiefocker: we did
(21:45:16) pixiefocker: but i moved back home
(21:45:34) jakhamer75: i c
(21:45:56) jakhamer75: ur cute, got any more pics
(21:46:01) pixiefocker: uhm yes
(21:46:12) pixiefocker: http://www.myspace.com/pixiefocker
(21:46:13) jakhamer75: trade?
(21:47:08) jakhamer75: not bad at all, i definetly wouldn't kick u out of bed
(21:47:17) pixiefocker: okay
(21:47:32) jakhamer75: u don't take compliments well.lol
(21:47:44) pixiefocker: how should i take it?
(21:47:57) jakhamer75: who know's i'm being a smart ass
(21:48:02) jakhamer75: and a dumbass
(21:48:06) jakhamer75: so u did fine
(21:48:08) jakhamer75: speaking of fine
(21:48:13) jakhamer75: send me some xxx pics
(21:48:30) pixiefocker: lol i can send you a kick in the ass
(21:48:37) jakhamer75: i had one earlier
(21:48:42) pixiefocker: im not some retarded ass little skank who sends out nudes
(21:48:59) jakhamer75: oh damn take that ad off the internet then
(21:49:07) jakhamer75: or did i misread it
(21:49:08) pixiefocker: what ad?
(21:49:12) jakhamer75: lol u don't know
(21:49:37) pixiefocker: dont be a retard, there isnt shit on the internet
(21:49:49) jakhamer75: i know, i'm busting ur balls
(21:49:56) jakhamer75: or shall i say clam strips
(21:50:12) pixiefocker: actually you should say, not available to you so quit dreaming ;D
(21:50:25) jakhamer75: baby i'm on cause i'm bored
(21:50:31) jakhamer75: u wouldn't want me
(21:50:37) pixiefocker: of course not
(21:50:48) jakhamer75: ur poor boyfriend would be fucking a bowl of soup when i got through with ya
(21:51:07) pixiefocker: uhm yeahhhhh see, you wouldnt get a chance with me
(21:51:29) jakhamer75: i'm not looking for a chance, just a place to dump my load
(21:51:35) jakhamer75: ur face will do
(21:51:45) pixiefocker: well you better stick with your sister, bubba
(21:51:51) jakhamer75: or ur mom
(21:51:59) jakhamer75: but she always bugs me about back child support
(21:52:08) jakhamer75: told her ur not mine
(21:52:10) jakhamer75: i pulled out
(21:52:14) jakhamer75: she remembers
(21:52:24) jakhamer75: ur little slow
(21:52:27) pixiefocker: funny I dont remember having a mother who is alive, necrophilia much?
(21:52:31) jakhamer75: must be cause ur from mulberry
(21:52:41) jakhamer75: u and andy got to meet barney down at the diner
(21:52:48) pixiefocker: no actually it's because I have better people to talk to than some random back woods retard from orlando
(21:52:58) jakhamer75: back woods from orlando
(21:53:03) jakhamer75: that makes sense
(21:53:12) pixiefocker: it sure does.
(21:53:18) pixiefocker: nothing but trash comes from orlando
(21:53:18) jakhamer75: there is no woods in orlando
(21:53:24) pixiefocker: so before you insult mulberry you need to look around
(21:53:30) jakhamer75: alot out of mulberry
(21:53:34) pixiefocker: there is no woods in orlando, WOW and you are insulting my grammar?
(21:53:36) jakhamer75: white trash and beggers
(21:53:43) pixiefocker: you need to go back to school sweet heart
(21:53:46) jakhamer75: no just ur mom
(21:53:49) jakhamer75: or ur dead mom
(21:53:56) jakhamer75: i send my regrets
(21:53:57) pixiefocker: 5th grade insults are the funniest
(21:54:03) jakhamer75: still no child support
(21:54:03) pixiefocker: especially coming from a 25 year old
(21:54:09) jakhamer75: got me there
(21:54:16) jakhamer75: quite witty
(21:54:20) jakhamer75: for a bitch
(21:54:20) pixiefocker: yes very
(21:54:30) jakhamer75: to bad u have to live with it
(21:54:30) pixiefocker: aww that's the nicest thing you've said this entire conversation
(21:54:46) jakhamer75: well thanks, can i have head now?
(21:54:55) jakhamer75: don't be so greedy
(21:54:58) pixiefocker: sure ask your sister
(21:55:08) jakhamer75: don't go through this again
(21:55:17) jakhamer75: are u gonna or not
(21:55:32) pixiefocker: no.
(21:55:34) pixiefocker: nine.
(21:55:35) pixiefocker: nada.
(21:55:40) jakhamer75: well damn u could of said that earlier
(21:55:46) jakhamer75: i could of had 5 min of my life back
(21:55:48) pixiefocker: I did you ass.
(21:55:51) jakhamer75: shit head............................
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[24 May 2006|08:56pm]
So yeah, I got a new job today lol. I work for the QVC home shopping network making 10.50 an hour. :D Yays. And stuff.
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[23 May 2006|11:11pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Work is interesting.. I work with Tess and Kayleigh. Kayleigh's uberly awesome boyfriend Dan gave me a moniter for my comp and a mini-fridge. Woo hoo. So, sometimes I really wish I had help with Serenity. I see Tessie and Shannon together and I can't help but be jealous. They really love each other, and Shannon is so great with Reygan. They are the perfect little family. Why couldn't I have lucked out like that? Why didn't I try? She would be unhappy though, I need to remember that. I want a family so bad.. I want a whole family. Having a baby is really hard sometimes. -sigh- I love you all. Goodnight.

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Just wanted to say.. [22 May 2006|01:39am]
[ mood | restless ]

Kayleigh rocks.

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[21 May 2006|11:13pm]
[ mood | amused ]

So Lisa the hooker that stole the DVD player just called. She used a fake name, Kim, well I muted the phone. She told my dad she needed him to call some weird num that kept showing up on her cell then she said she might need a ride. My dad was like who is this? She was like "the outlaw" and he was like uuuhhh okay? He was like yeah they are looking for you.. because of that DVD player. She said what?? Then I got on the phone and told her I knew she stole it and to stay out of my yard and not to call my phone. She started threatning me with nonsense and my Dad basically told her the same thing. She said she would be over to whip my ass. I told her to go ahead becaue I would call the police. Dumb bitch. I hope she does come. But if she wakes up my daughter I will have to slaughter her hefer ass.

I start work tomorrow, w00t.


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thank god for hookers, never thought youd hear me say that. huh? [21 May 2006|06:51am]
[ mood | tired ]

So in light of recent events of the missing goods from home, when I came home this morning seeing a random bike in my driveway I went into my fathers room to investigate. It was Shannon, the one I suspected for everything. After talking to her for a good while and her saying Lisa stole the DVD player and my sister's boom box, I asked about my Debit card. She honestly replied saying she did spend money on it, but it was presented to her by Paulette (currently incarcerated, Polksheriff.org, search Paulette Crystal) she openly admitted using the card though. I was in awe, when she handed me 20 dollars and said "Merry Christmas or something.." that's gas for me to get to work on Monday.

Oh yeah I got a job at Great Escapes, some travel agency. A bullshit job like the last, conning people. Anywho.. I was very surprised. All and all, today was a good day. I hung out with Kayleigh and Dan and her brother, who was wayyy to drunk for his own good. I can't say anything for myself because I was intoxicated as well, on Jack and Rum.. Thank God for alcohol..

I am home now tired as hell wondering if Tess called to affirm the time we are supposed to be in training Monday.. I don't want to fall asleep now because I am worried that I won't wake up for awhile.

So sleepy.. went up the Hatter, saw Bug aka Davey, Fred, and Fozzy. I love them all, so sweet <33333 Especially Davey looking especially sexy for some reason in his Pink Floyd shirt. Missing partials tho.. not so pretty. Was he always that tall? I also met the infamous Kiwi, nice girl. Tonight was very pleasant.

I do not want to fall asleep.. stay awake.. stay awake.. STAY AWAKE..

ARG. Maybe I will just take a power nap after finding Paulette on polksheriff..tata ;D


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[20 May 2006|03:36pm]
i wanna be a criminal profiler thanks melanie.
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[18 May 2006|11:31pm]
Whoa nelleh!

Lots of bad bad bad events lately. I suck @ life times ten.

Someone remind me that I am a strong woman and don't need a man! Femi-nazis UNITE!

Just kidding. About the Femi-nazis.
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[18 May 2006|01:51pm]
So to top off a bad week..

I checked my bank account knowing I had overdrafted already, but guess what, my balance was -377.71 WTF.

Yeah here is what happened, last November I bought Ashley a cellphone from T Mobile for her birthday, well she cancelled it early and was told it would be free because she doesnt get service in her area. They charged ME the early term fee even though she was paying the bills with her credit card. Hurray.

SO I call Cash Advance America or whatever, the place where I got an advance to pay my car crap. I told them what was up. They said they can't give me an advancement, told them that if I get paid a hard check tomorrow and not direct deposit I can bring them 100 dollars, she said if I do that she will extend it till the 31st. Mother fucker. This sucks ASS. If I don't get 100 dollars before tomorrow guess what? I am even more in debt. I hate life. I really do. I might have to sell my gamecube and my DVD player. Shit.
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HELP! [18 May 2006|11:38am]
I went to Holiday Inn and tomorrow I have drug screening, I need clean urine. Totally KIDDING.

Actually what I do need, is clothes. The dress code is black pants, white button up shirts and non skid black shoes. Also the shirt has to be ironed. I do not own an iron.

Sooo yeah, the only black pants I own have a HUGE iron mark, not from me. I don't own any white shirts or the shoes. If anyone can donate clothes and/or money I SWEAR they are going to this cause, you can even come with me to buy it! I can pay whoever back when I get paid if you can help me. Eh. This probably won't reel any results but what the hell, it's worth a shot.

I wear size 5-7 in pants, yeah I know I have a big ass, and shirts are small to medium, I have no chest. LoL. My shoe size ranges from 9-11 depending on the brand. Okay.. thank you for reading this I love you all. <3
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graveyard pics, im fat. [17 May 2006|11:23pm]
tessie and i romping around. hah.
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stop hammer time [17 May 2006|10:44am]
[ mood | creative ]

last post inspired me to make a serenity picture post, some from the past, and some new ones that are unseen!

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[17 May 2006|10:21am]
[ mood | artistic ]

serenity is so cute, we are downloading kids songs and singing them. she about ripped my hair trying to kiss me on the barney song LOL.

shes adorable..

-dies of cavaties-

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[17 May 2006|12:43am]

06/22/2006 06:30 PM - House of Blues (Orlando)
1490 E Buena Vista, Lake Buena Vista, FL 32830 - $17.50/$20

06/23/2006 06:00 PM - Revolution
200 West Broward Blvd., Ft Lauderdale, FL 33312 - $17.50/$20

06/24/2006 08:00 PM - Freebird Live
200 N. First Street, Jacksonville, FL 32250 - $17/$20

06/25/2006 06:30 PM - Jannus Landing
220 1st Avenue N., St Petersburg, FL 33701 - $16/$18

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[17 May 2006|12:18am]
[ mood | crazy ]

pictures.. kinda setsi? not really.

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[16 May 2006|09:01pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Missed my interview today thanks to rain and my power shutting off, thus my alarm didnt sound. Ugh. I called Books a Million, they said to call them tomorrow during the day. I need a job so bad. I would LOVE to work at BAM, just because I love to read, but they probably pay crappy. Picked Serenity up today. She is always so cranky when she comes back from the in-laws. Ugh. I am really hoping Tesky will come through this weekend, I have something to do.. but we shall see. I will probably call his Mom. I can't wait till I get paid Friday. I am so broke. My dad has been supporting my ciggarette habit, and Serenity's pooping habit. Lol. Yeah.. sad. The friend and I that had the falling out have spoken, and boy I am glad we did. I am really happy that I have real friends. I used to be so jealous of people that had friends and now I have real ones. REAL FRIENDS. Wow. It's an amazing feeling to know that someone is there for you unconditionally. I couldn't be happier. Erik and I still talk sometimes. I don't really know what's going on with us. I do know that I am ready to be a responsible adult though. I am going to find a job and keep it. I am going to get my own place to live, and I am going to go back to school. I really do crave school. I miss it so much. I want to remember what it was like to have homework, I want to remember what the first day of school was like. Nervous about whether the teacher is nice or not, and all of the challenges that lie ahead. -sigh- I am giddy thinking about it. I am so happy I have a car. I got to see people I haven't seen in AGES. I saw Summer, John and AT. I will definately be visiting them again. I miss everyone. I miss Jared, I miss Summer, I miss Melanie, I miss all my high school friends. I am also very glad Tessie has been such a great person to me. We used to have such a hatred for each other, but to our surprise we are almost exactly alike. Weird girls. She is amazing and I am so sorry for ever not liking her. She and I are discussing rooming together. Probably will get an apartment, or a house. She has a child as well so Serenity will have a play mate. Oh Serenity.. sleeping right now. She's so big. It seems like school is around the corner. Her first date.. her first car. I am so excited to be her Mommy. I have two scrap books, that I have yet to start. I was going to do it with Erik's family but.. we see how that ended. IF anyone that reads this scrapbooks and wants to show me some ropes, please do! People have been surprising me lately. I have friends in places I never knew. Thank you all so much for helping me through this tough time. Thank you for showing me I can make it on my own. I don't need a man. All I need is myself. I am intelligent and motivated. I am a ditz sometimes though, don't get me wrong hehe. I love you all.

Places I have applied so far:

Home Depot
Books a Million
Holiday Inn
Maid Pro
Brighthouse (Brandon to be a sales associate)
tons of places online I can't even remember

Pepboys (other manly places lol)
Barnes & Noble
Summit Consulting

If all else fails:
Staffing places!

If any of you know of any call centers in or around Lakeland/Mulberry please let me know. Or if you know of any place to apply. I need a job desperately. <3

-Tart with a ♥

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[15 May 2006|12:49am]
GOD im depressed.

eff you see kay.

i hate feeling this way.
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[15 May 2006|12:15am]
[ mood | blah ]

I hate being single. BLAH!

I hate living at my Dad's house. It sucks. I want to move ASAP. Been job hunting, going tomorrow actually, with Tessie. Blah. I really hate my life right now. Mother's Day was okay, Watched Survivor, Aras won! Yay! I wanted Cirie to win though. So anyways I am bored and I have picked up smoking again.. bad Tara I know. I am just so stressed out. I feel numb. Erik wants to stay together but not live together.. I don't know though. I mean I feel like a booty call or something. He got me some bath stuff for Mother's Day. It was nice I guess. GOD, I hate this situation.

i have a crush.

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